Officially heartbroken.

ben eons since my heart was shattered.

your words and your tone differs so much from the past.

did i change or should i say have i changed?
or have you?

withlotsatears
eunice

I wonder if some things will ever ever change.
It's kind of like, you are caught in this rut,
swimming your way out, but to no avail.
And with age, it gets deeper.
It would mean that you are mature enough to think and control your temper,
and all the people you hurt know that too,
so they would probably regard you with some form of disappointment.

i always feel that when you are being too direct,
it's a mixture of both good and bad
good because you dont go round backstabbing people
bad because people think that you offended them.

i don't wana go round creating enmity with others
yet i dont wish to create a fake personality
which is so NOT MIE.

sighs well life is such
and i believe that with every little ting you do
you will never be able to please everybody.

I just hope we can deal with matters of fact rationally and maturely,
im still learning for sure.

i dont wish to blabber incoherently.
i just wish that i can get to speak up for myself.

livinginanemptyshell
eunice

heyys im back

even though im nt working now
i could hardly lift my fingers to upload peektures taken in taiwan
how lazy am i man?

but anyway i dont wish to lead that kind of life
whereby whatever little puny things i do
i have to take pics, yes for remembrance definitely,
but not taking photos for the sake of uploading in fb
and allowing the entire world to intrude into my privacy.
im not into those haolian or boastful kind of lifestyle.

ok had a nice dinner with both hubby and jimmy
a mini gathering once in a while is good
sighs
anyway im feeling a little pissed
i have no choice but to let it out here
after all not everyone peeps or reads my blog
so this is a SAFE place for mie.

im pissed with my cuzzie
no i actually adore her.
but sometimes she makes mie feel that she's not into the right world you know
like somehow trying to find her life still
and a couple of times
she asked me abt designer stuff, wallets to be particular
i gave her comments, opinions on which kind to choose
she wanted a designer wallet
SHE SOUGHT FOR MY OPINIONS
naturally i will give her genuine comments
and she listened to her mom or smt
and ended up getting a guess wallet
im sorry to all
but guess is not a desginer brand.
sooooo my efforts were all wasted.

im nt earning anything from you in getting a wallet
you seem genuinely interested in getting one
so im just trying to help you here
but you said designs were not nice, not pretty enough, not your style
THEN YOU SHOULDNT ASK MIE IN THE FIRST PLACE
cause our styles are different. very hugeee difference i would say.

im not into designer stuffs too
i just have a designer wallet recently.

i did not spend unneccessary money on designer bags
or shoes or clothes.

all i had was jut one wallet.
that shouldnt even be compared with the LVs or the Guccis

and i wasnt even PRO in selecting designer stuffs
so if you asked mie for help
you should respect my comments
and dont give me shit like " this is not my style"
then you shouldnt ASK miee.
noo i dint force you to buy stuffs that you dont fancy obviously
BUT at least respect my comments and opinions.

i gave this matter a pass and not talk about it anymore
after all she's my younger cuzzie.

then she came asking mie about designer wallets for her bf' bdae
so being overly helpful or foolish
i helped her again
and she gave mie SHIT like "oh the designs not very nice leh!"
and
"i dont think he's into branded goods, he always use fake stuff!"

HELLLOOOOOO
EXCUSE MIE ARE YOU NUTS OR ARE YOU PURELY DUMBO?

she gave mie a budget to get a designer wallet
and after a longgggggg hoo-ha
she said "i think i go wallet shop get the wallets from there!"

c'mon,
wallet shop wallets and designer wallets are very god damn different.
different in prices(very drastic difference)
and designs are incomparable.

ahhhhhhh tell me
am i supposed to get angry?

by the way i really do wish to do household chores you know
help out my mil
but whenever i opened the freakinng cabinet underneath the sinkwhere the disinfecting solutions and washing detergents are
its always filled with cockroaches, both baby and adult ones and their smelly disgusting eggs

*long sighsssssssssssssss*
as far as cockroaches are involved, its either them or mie.
i m hugeellly afraid of them.

*whinesssss*
i wana talk to baby
i wana tell him i miss him
but he's always so busy with work
and he has to go for running back in camp today.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
im so alone today. :(((


littlelonelywoman
eunice

yippppieee
hubby's cousins are coming over.
wheee this spells "awesome"!

Many thanks to people who has sent mie tons of well wishes
wishing mie a speedy recovery!
so here i am 80% better already, but still an occasional sneeze once in a while.

no-one loves to be ill
but being ill once in a blue moon makes you feel like a princess
well, at least for miee.

baby is gonna be so late tonight
sighs he has to go for some ridiculous physical training in camp.

*pouts* and i miss him already.

i wish i can see him right after his work.

ok enough of being lovesick.
i just had a revitalizing moment
my face felt so smooth, radiant and bouncy!
just like how baby always poke my cheeks
and go "toi toi"

heh heh i got this fab facial masks from taiwan
awww i regret not getting a dozen boxes.
its soo goood.
everything in taiwan is good, if not fanstastic.

the food, the shopping, the culture,
the people, the scenery, the environment.

wheeee a million thumbs up!

just a brief description on the places i went to in taiwan.

first day: taipei

second day: hualien

third day: Taitung

fourth day: Kaoshiung

fifth day: taipei

sixth day: back in sg

out of the 4-5 places in taiwan,
i absolutely loveeeee hualien.
the hotel was amzing, the food was finger-licking good, i had freakinng 3 bowls of rice
im never a rice-person
i prefer bread and pasta, yes im that ang moh-ish.
even ang mohs like rice now you know.
but definitely not mieeee.

however, i lurveee taiwan rice to the max.
i gobbled up at least 1.5 bowls of rice per meal which i thought it was scary.
even baby thought i was being rice-crazy.

but their rice is so heavenly,
tasted a little like japanese rice but its much more fluffy and Q.
i like it on how the rice is chewy and every bite make the rice go sweeeeet.
likeee candilicious kind of sweet you know.

awwwwwwwww now im back in sg
im going on some rice strike again.
i dont like rice, i complained abt the rice
i go all pukey and whiny when i have to eat dinner.

sighsssss tell miee where can i get yummilicious QQ taiwanese rice?
i miss the big gigantic gong gong which are so horribly sweet
their meat is so succulent. and we get to keep their prettified shells.

i miss their smelly tofu.
fuck i eat them every single day
thank god i have my honey marshmallow baby to share my lurve in smelly tofu.
oooh oooh ohhhh. smellllllyyyyyyy yet sooo tastyyyyy, so delicious, soooo finger-licking smacking yums.

nom nom nom. i lurve fooodddd. i lurve taiwanese snacks.
i go gagagagagaga over their beancurd in which i had 2 big servings
i lurve their desserts, their toilet restaurant.
i lurve their night markets, lurve it when there are kiap kiap mahcines everywhere.
i lurve their snacks, their 小吃 , i always dabao lots of supper back to my hotel room,
curl up on the armchair, place my legs on another chair and start nibbling on everything.

wheeeeee..

i wana go back to taiwan!

ok im lurvesick again.

shall call baby now. :((

thelurvesickwife
eunice

heyyys im back.

im glad that im recovering
though i still feel lethargic and groggy.

i need plenty of rest and i still have no appetite.
haha at least i get to lose a little bit of weight i gained from the taiwan trip.

ok its the 8th again,
so HAPPY 5TH MTH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY AND 31 MONTHS OF BEING TOGETHER
MY SWEETEST HUBBY!

tim really flies
in a BLINK OF AN EYE
POOOFFFF
it's da 8th again.

the 8th of every month is significant to us
cause we got together on the 8th of feb
and eventually got married on the 8th of april.
yes its coincidental.
we did not plan it.

just now i was telling my mother in law that
today is a special day
and she was like "what special day?"
so i told her "its me and your son's anniversary!"

she excalimed " oh so every month you guys celebrate huh, not tired meh?"
haha i smiled.
c'mon, at least i get to look forward to the 8th every month
in which i know its an awfully special day for both of us.

sooooo dear hubby;
thanks sooo much for your unconditional lurve you have for mie,
the princessy treatment that you showered on mie,
the little things you did to make mie go all soft and literally melt in your arms

gugu laogong,
your gugu laopo lurves you to the max.

though we didnt head out to celebrate,
i purposely went all out to get yummy food to celebrate! wheeee
oh god its' still raining and i hope i wont catch a chill again.

getting married is every girl's dream.

getting married to you is MY DREAM. :)

withlotsoflurve
eunice

BYEBYE appleping, you have been good.
and yes im gona miss you so much.
and come to think of that, i have been stuck with appleping for 5 good years.

i guess it's time for a change.
so here you are, ms-eq, yes eq is my initials,
appleping used to be my intials too, some kiddish nickname
okok, i shall stop dwelling on the fact that appleping is long gone.

im so determined to pack away my every regret, every bad memories, every heart-wrenching moments.

i admit that there are pleasant memories as well but you know if there is something bad lurking in your blog, you are so dying for a huge change.

and if you are a friend or acquaintance of mine, you will jolly well know that
my marital status is different now.

im married. to mr lee.

almost 5 mths into our marriage, i have learnt alot.

I learnt that things don’t always turn out the way you planned,

or the way you think they should.

And I have learnt that there are things that go wrong

that don’t always get fixed or

get put back together the way they were before.

I have learnt that some broken things stay broken,

and i have learnt that you can get through bad times

and keep looking for better ones,

as long as you have people who love you.

yes mr lee loves mie alot and he really dotes on mie.

however, we do get into unnecessary quarrels (huge ones) and arguments which led us
to nowhere and our tolerance levels for each other seem to be lesser.

but we always make sure that we made up as soon as possible.
after all it's 2 different individuals trying to live together with each other
and there are bound to have conflicts here and there.

we fight, we made up, we fight, we reconcile.
that's the spirit of love isnt it?

if there are no fights, how do you learn to understand each other more.
how do you make yourself improve?
how do you make yourself strive harder than before?

ok im feeling really groggy right now,
have been sick for 4 consecutive days.


please bear with me. i will update more entries very soon. :)

loveisintheair
eunice